I currently have a couple of submissions out and as I furiously typed the 'continuing saga' I realized something: living in the story was only increasing my anxiety over my submissions. We've all been there. Sleepless nights, restless days, obsessive email checking, the urge to not stray too far from internet access, the constant second guessing... you get my drift. Continuing with the story was a daily reminder that these character's had all of my hopes and dreams thrust on their imaginary shoulders.
The worrying (and some well-written agent blogs) prompted me to face the very real possibility that this book won't be picked up. I may not find an agent this round. The idea might not resonate with anyone. Then I choked on my coffee when I thought about the fact that an entire year of writing has been dedicated to one story. The story that might not fly. So I shelved book #3. My subs are still out and I'm not giving up hope, but I'm not putting all of my eggs in one basket either.
I came to my laptop on a rainy Saturday morning with a challenge: write in the first person. I'm a third person, multiple POV type of girl myself, so sitting down to write "I did this" and "I did that" terrified me. But you know what? It's growing on me! I kind of like literally stepping into a character's shoes; living her life and seeing things through her eyes. Plus it's a fresh idea, so unrelated to what I've been working on that it's taken my mind off of my obsessive-compulsive worrying.
I'm not saying that I've abandoned my trilogy, saga, whatever. I'll finish it. I need to have closure, no matter what. But I am going to broaden my horizons and have a back up plan, because maybe this next project will be THE project!